It's pretty crazy, really.
I started this blog a year ago off an impulse, and 365 days and over 1000 pictures later, it's really become a part of my life. One of the things I used to constantly do was dwell on the past; I remember at one point, I'd relive 5th grade all the time. That was a great year, and things just kind of went downhill from there, so I'd keep going back and replaying my favorite memories. Some days I would just lie on my bed and drown in my thoughts. And you would think this project would've further contributed to that; I mean it's like, now I even have a picture to go with it! And I'm not saying that this blog ended up being the answer to everything and that it's made me all happy and left me wiser or something. Because that's not what I'm saying at all. It didn't do any of that. It's kind of like ... at some point I realized I didn't have to keep mulling over what good thing happened yesterday or a month ago or whatever. I had all these pictures, and I was never going to forget what happened on those days. Like, I could just let go of it, and kind of live in the moment, and it'd be okay.
If that makes any kind of sense. I'm not quite sure what I'm trying to say either lol.
I'm glad I have this blog and have these pictures documenting these events in my life. I've met people I never thought I'd meet, I've been to places I'd never thought I'd be, I've tried things I never thought I'd try. Granted, this year hasn't been all positive things. Like I said, it's not like my problems just went away. I've had plenty of regrets this year. I've more than disappointed myself on several occasions. I've been the lowest I've ever been. But then I've also been at my highest. This is all I'm gonna say: August 11th was a breakthrough day for me.
And no, it's not because I "owned up a Mexican", to put it in Khang's terms, lol.
Anyhow, I'm not ready for this all to be over. Not yet, anyway. So let's go for a second round, shall we. (:
I started this blog a year ago off an impulse, and 365 days and over 1000 pictures later, it's really become a part of my life. One of the things I used to constantly do was dwell on the past; I remember at one point, I'd relive 5th grade all the time. That was a great year, and things just kind of went downhill from there, so I'd keep going back and replaying my favorite memories. Some days I would just lie on my bed and drown in my thoughts. And you would think this project would've further contributed to that; I mean it's like, now I even have a picture to go with it! And I'm not saying that this blog ended up being the answer to everything and that it's made me all happy and left me wiser or something. Because that's not what I'm saying at all. It didn't do any of that. It's kind of like ... at some point I realized I didn't have to keep mulling over what good thing happened yesterday or a month ago or whatever. I had all these pictures, and I was never going to forget what happened on those days. Like, I could just let go of it, and kind of live in the moment, and it'd be okay.
If that makes any kind of sense. I'm not quite sure what I'm trying to say either lol.
I'm glad I have this blog and have these pictures documenting these events in my life. I've met people I never thought I'd meet, I've been to places I'd never thought I'd be, I've tried things I never thought I'd try. Granted, this year hasn't been all positive things. Like I said, it's not like my problems just went away. I've had plenty of regrets this year. I've more than disappointed myself on several occasions. I've been the lowest I've ever been. But then I've also been at my highest. This is all I'm gonna say: August 11th was a breakthrough day for me.
And no, it's not because I "owned up a Mexican", to put it in Khang's terms, lol.
Anyhow, I'm not ready for this all to be over. Not yet, anyway. So let's go for a second round, shall we. (:
